You know in school, in every class, there is almost always a kid who is always two steps behind everyone else. He has to try twice as hard to get things right, and even then, he often gets it wrong. Nobody wants to hang out with him because well, kids being kids, they believe that they could catch the “stupid cooties” from this kid.
I feel like that kid almost everyday in my life. I feel stupid, defective, unwanted, unloved. I feel as though everyone “gets” it and I don’t. I feel as though there is a secret handshake, or a secret language which I simply do not comprehend. I’m out of snyc somehow. Out of step with the rest of the world.