Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Get me out of here

In Rachel Reiland's book "Get me out of here", she describes her BPD symptoms and her journey to recovery.

She had a husband who despite being constantly abused and pushed to his limits, stuck by Rachel. She had children who she loved, despite her illness.

Every single person in my DBT group is or has been married at least once before, or has a partner, has children.

What makes me such a freak?

2 comments:

Ron_F said...

I just read this same book in the past week. Very much like a compressed therapy program, except I got to the end and thought "how can she be all better? I'm not all better."

It is very fortunate for Rachel and for myself and others to have spouses who will stay and love me no matter how hard I try to push her away.

I hope you have someone who will stand by you, but it doesn't sound like you think that is true right now. Is it possible that you are choosing not to see how friends or loved ones are trying to be there for you? I'm sorry it looks so dark right now.

sansanity said...

i ahve friends and family who stay by me but it doesn't feel quite the same as being choosen by someone...
there is something so different about it that i believe wholeheartedly that it is the ANSWER to all this darkness, that if i coudl find it, all would be ok.

but knowing i can not nor will not find it, nor could even maintain it if i found it, well that's the knife that stabs me every second of every day.