Thursday, October 05, 2006
Seem to have lost my way once again. Keeping focus is so intolerably difficult. Time dragging so agonizingly slowly and yet it could go past so quickly when I am staring at the corner. What is the meaning of all this? Or maybe it simply does not have one. I am counting my pills, and I have too many. Have I been taking them? Slips of the mind, causing black holes everywhere in my brain. Thoughts falling through the cracks. Maybe gone missing when I wasn’t looking. I haven’t been looking. I’m just trying to find my way again. In the meantime my heart keeps on beating, and a suicide note is in my desk drawer.