I’m so tired. I couldn’t sleep last night. Tossing and turning for hours. It felt like it would never end. I tried some DBT skills like using imagery to self soothe. Nothing worked. I finally gave up and took some Ativan to get some sleep. I was off in Happy land within the next hour. But this was already almost midnight. Which meant that when my alarm went off at 6.20am, I was so not ready to get up to face the day. As usual excuses floated through my head. Just call the boss and say “I’m sick, hack hack hack (sound effects usually help)”
“I can’t make it into work today, boss, my body is refusing to get up, but I’ll be there in spirit”.
“Last night my cat got run over and I’m burying him today…… When boss says - "I thought you hate cats?" I’d say “Who do you think ran over him?”
No. I went into work anyway. I’m physically here at least. But probably not here in spirit.