I’m back. Not a lot of people are, but it’s peaceful here today, and I’m grateful for that. I spent a large part of my “holiday” in hospital. Everything seemed too big for me to contain. Being in there this time around didn’t feel so agonizing. I was there voluntarily, so I had the freedom to come and go. Many people wanted to make things right for me. I felt so bad letting everyone down.
They released me on a weekend pass, but I didn’t make it through the entire weekend. I found myself running bare foot at 3am to the hospital. Sometimes fear can drive you to forget simple things.