Monday, May 26, 2008

It ain't pretty


It hasn't been pretty. But then again, the spillage of over-emotion is never pretty.

I'm left somewhat embarressed. It's like having been caught naked, exposed.

Tomorrow I'm going in to see V and I will need to do some debriefing over the events of the past couple of weeks. I know I'll play it down, I'll smooth it over. What? Me? Need you? Phhsaw.....



Suzanne said...

Yes of course you can come, do you want to borrow one of my dogs or bring your own? ;-)

There are no polar bears sadly however there *are* seals AND the occasional walrus and if I see one I'll scream with exitement (fear obviously if I'm that close haha!)

I think I've figured out what I must do - I feel like Sandy in Grease - a total life overhaul is needed. ;-)

G suggested to me last week that we only see each other once every two weeks being as we're now winding down our therapy sessions. I said "of course, no problem" - then immediately went off and spent the entire weekend in a heightened state of anxiety. Typical eh?

Aqua said...

I say play it EXACTLY how you feel. I think pdoc's/therapists really need to know how what they do and saw impacts their patient's stability and recovery; how even little nuances can traumatize people, let alone placing fears of abandonment on someone who is so vulnerable (though I see you are incredibly strong at the same time).

Aqua said...

Hi Polar Bear,
I e-mailed you my e-mail address.
Take care,

Zathyn Priest said...

I hope you're session with V helped to alleviate some of your worries and fears. You've been going through such emotional upheaval lately, I wish for you some time to rest and feel safe.

You've been tagged on my latest post - check it out if you want something frivolous to try and take your mind off things for a few minutes :)