Monday, July 21, 2008

The review

A week's gone by, and I'm still re-adjusting. I don't know why it's taking me so long. I'm crawling through the days as if maimed. After last weekend's crazy obssesive cleaning spree, I've slumped into a period of restlessness and low mood.

The review by the specialist BPD team last week went well, I think. V was with me, and as she was walking me out, she seemed pleased with my effort to engage with them. I hadn't really felt like talking when I headed into the interview, but in the end, I did. I had told V I would give it my best, and that was what I did.

I don't know if I was expecting them to have horns sticking out of their heads, but when I met them, I was somewhat surprised that they weren't holding pitchforks in their hands. The pdoc looked like a mild tempered sort of guy, and asked his questions in a quiet probing sort of way. The woman psychotherapist was unassuming and quiet in her manner as well. I didn't have too tough a time answering their questions, so that was good.

I don't know what they discussed with V after I left, but maybe V will share them with me tomorrow when I see her. And it'll probably take a couple of weeks for their recommendations to be completed - I will be given a copy of that. It'll be interesting to see what they come up with.


Rylah/Jacqui said...

I'm so proud of you, it sounds like you handled it really well. I know how freaky those kinds of interviews/assessments can be - yuk!
I hope you get a good, or at least helpful report. Bear in mind that it can be kind of scary to read those things though. Maybe you could read it with V, so you feel a bit safer and can then talk about it with her?


Judy B said...

Those interviews are difficult. We don't have a team but I sometimes have to talk to different doctors that I don't know. Reading your recent experiences, brings back all the uncertainty in getting help. It's so difficult and uncertain. One hopes for a little kindness. I admire your bravery.

Wandering Coyote said...

Well, I'm glad you were pleasantly surprised. I know how intimidating these things can be sometimes.

Suzanne said...

Well done! These things are never easy and it sounds like you handled it with aplomb - and obviously V was very proud of you! :-) xxx

sansanity said...

PB I don't think it matters what they say. The true gift of the meeting is that you made another HUGE stride in quelling your fears and doing something anyway.