Now I'm not so sure I will show this to V next week. It made a lot of sense to me when I was drawing it. I had these captured images in my head, like snap shots which I needed to put on paper. And I drew it feverishly, as if possessed for over an hour. But my mind was in a different place, on a different plane. I had images and words, not sentences.
Looking at the image now, I can try to explain it, but I'm not sure it fits with what V is really looking for:
Signing the DBT contract is like having a map. It is like a map in an amusement park - where you can figure out where you want to go. Having a map helps us avoid getting lost in the "Lost forest" where we could go around and around certain issues and waste a lot of time. The "Trickster" tree in the middle of the Lost Forest is responsible for leading us astray.
Other key areas on the map and what they mean:
"Kingdom of Evil" (mid-right side): The three words in the horns are some of the worst fears I have, and the entire "kingdom" is a place for me to avoid. Knowing where it is is important because I want to be able to find my way back if I wander into it accidently.
"Practice Mindfulness" (center of illustration): This is the core DBT skill which I need to practice
"Rest Tent" (above Practice Mindfulness): Reminds me to rest my mind and body when things overwhelm me. DBT skills such as - taking a vacation, getting enough sleep and eating healthy.
Veering off to the right (arrows) - "Fortress of isolation": Try to avoid the Fortress as this can lead to dangerous places in the mind. Also, just because it is there doesn't mean that I want to get myself stuck in it. Again, it is important to know where it is so I can avoid it.
Veering to the left (arrows) - "Focus on goals" (top left of illustration): reminds me to focus on goals set in the DBT contract. To work hard on them.
Right next to "Focus on goals" is "Build positive events": another DBT skill which is essential. For building the "Castle of Hope".
All these will lead ultimately to a "Life worth living".
I don't know if V will see the sense it made for me when I drew this. Explaining it in words now seem to take a lot out of what I had intended the images to portray on the night I drew it.
Maybe it belongs in the rubbish bin, like my rubbish mind. I don't know.
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