It took me a while to get it out, but she poked, and prodded, and gently guided me back on track when I deliberately wandered off.
I told her it was hard for me to imagine we still had a connection when she was going to be away for such a long time. I told her how scared I am that she would never come back. I got it out there, even though it was embaressing - I felt like a frantic toddler whose parent was leaving the room and she was going to find herself all alone and terrified in the dark.
But she didn't ridicule me. She didn't make me feel small and pathetic, even though I FELT pathetic. Infact, she came up with several ideas which made me feel a whole lot better.
She said she'd give me a photo of her, and she'd write me a note, outlining our appointment in the new year when she got back. She wanted me to think about taking something from her office to remind me of our relationship.
Something shifted in my brain then. I think those things would really ease the pain of our separation.
How good is that?