Friday, February 13, 2009
I've been meaning to update sooner than this, but I keep procrastinating. I've been trying to keep up with things, and I keep getting side tracked. Work, my mental issues, sessions with V, processing that occurs in between sessions, my running... Those sorts of everyday things.
I'm afraid I'm slowly falling back into MYSELF. I find myself spinning tales of positivity and yet inside I'm being slowly consumed by negativity. And no matter how hard I'm trying to ignore it and pretend it's not hapenning, I know it's there and like an oil leak it will eventually poison the water.
I've already resorted to taking my PRN imovane two nights this week (and since I'm confessing this - twice last week too). And it worked like a charm. It's pretty much lights out 15mins after I take it. That's what I want. Bam - lights out. Nothing, until the blasted alarm clock gets me up the next morning.