Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Down the cosmic toilet

I don't know why, but my confidence is collapsing. I'm tired, and for the first time I wonder if I'm capable. If I looked at the big picture, I'd ask why not? But if I looked at the details, I'd find myself drowning. I'd push things around and the giant cosmic circle will work itself back to me. I'm confused. Where am I going?

4 comments:

Anonymous Drifter said...

I think you're more than capable.

Aqua said...

Hi Polar Bear,
You were so recently very very ill and in the hospital. Give yourself some time and space to slowly get back into the swing of things. Can V recommend you work a bit less for a few weeks? Maybe a shortened work week/day would help you both do what you need to do, but also get the rest you need to feel up to speed.
(((Hugs)))
...aqua

Borderline Lil said...

Oh Polar. (((PB))). I'm sad you're feeling down. You've had such a full-on year, travelling and then revisiting the hospital, and now the anticipation of your parents visiting. Cut yourself some slack sweetie, you're extremely capable and have survived (and even flourished) thus far. Personally, I ALWAYS feel low, and broken down, after I get home from trips...takes me a while to settle into "normal" once more. Hope your energy and enthusiasm rebuilds soon. Love Lil xxx

ThePurpleOwl said...

When I feel overwhelmed and useless I seem to do better if I can take on a few small things that I *can* do. Somehow finishing a small thing successfully makes me feel a bit better -- it's a kind of 'Well, I can't be *that* bad, I can still do X'. Are there some small work/home tasks that you can succeed at to bump up your confidence a bit and remind yourself you're still capable? It's not detail-pushing I mean -- it's taking on a piece at a time to allow yourself to achieve something.

Man, I sound like a self-help book. I mean it though. *hugs*