Friday, May 08, 2009

Vacillate

I've been here before. The vacillation, from moments of utter despair to moments of quiet resignation.

I didn't sleep at all last night. All I did was lay in bed while the images played over and over in my mind.

8 comments:

Anonymous Drifter said...

I don't think there's anything worse than laying awake at night in emotional torment. I hope you're able to manage some sleep tonight.

Just Be Real said...

Dear one I am so very sorry for the continues torment you are experiencing. I do hope you are able to sleep tonight, peaceful.

Immi said...

Insomnia sux. :( I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. *vHugs*

butterflies said...

Maybe your meds need to be re-evaluated?
You shouldnt have to feel so stressed.

Now for me..I love to FEEL..good or bad,happy or sad,lonely or angry.It doesnt matter.

Its when I feel nothing that I hate it most.

Harriet said...

I'm sorry things have been tough. Sometimes the only way to get through painful times is to wait for them to get better. Sucks, doesn't it?

Tempy said...

I hope you can get some sleep tonight. There is nothing anyone can say on a blog note that says I am REALLY thinking about you, but polar bear, you are truly in my thoughts tonight and I hope you can feel that...

Mike Golch said...

I saw your comment over on Tempy's site.I came her to say that no matter what those thoughts are not the answer.I have been there way too many times.and if you are feeling that bad,you really need to call the Susicide provention hotline and talk to some one,PLEASE! we have never meet,but I can say this,YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL PERSON,please do not take your life.

Crazy Nurse said...

Polar bear, stay safe, the darkness will lift X