Things have settled down a little. Last week was rough, but V saw me through it. I need to remember what happens when I'm under stress, and apparently I was over the last month or so, stuff relating to work.
It was good to have a bit of a debrief session with V today in which she highlighted the importance of having some sort of plan for when I go fruity. Well, she didn't put it that way, but basically, for when I start to unravel.
There is a point, though, I think, when I cross over the point of no return when nothing will persuade my mind back from that edge and that inevitably I will find myself falling off that ledge. But this time, this time I could be talked through it, and that was good because now I know it can be done if caught (noticed) early enough. And that's the key to success or failure - catching it early enough. Apparently there are signs.
V acknowledged there is a lot of work for me to do here. And that we're not going to sort it out in an hour. But it's a start,... and I suppose I WILL at least try to put something together.