What's this life worth? What's it worth compared to the millions of stars in the sky? What's it worth compared to the waters of the seas?
I am nothing. I have never been anything but a speck of dust. I've never been worth more than the dirt on the ground.
It's inevitable that the pain will come, and this time, I think it will finally claim me, and secretly, in some deep part of me, I am relieved. I must be relieved. I've seen it coming, I knew it was coming. I'll never be prepared for it no matter how much time it gives me. I knew that too.
For a long time I've pretended, and I've been a fraud. And I've lived this fake life, pretending to have things I have no right having. I thought if I could just pretend, it could be real someday. I was wrong. I was so wrong. And now it's finally caught up with me.
It's true what they say - you can run, but you can't hide and eventually, you just can't run anymore. That's when it gets you. That's when it finally gets you.