Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Why?

Why do I do this to myself?

11 comments:

Fuschia said...

I do exactly the same thing and I don't know why either. Don't be too hard on yourself. Take care.

Anonymous Drifter said...

My arms are covered by thin white lines from my years of cutting and also a horrible huge surgical scar from taking it one step further and making a serious suicide attempt. I think the why can be answered by one word ... pain.

Stephany said...

I am here, sending support, you are not alone.

Alison said...

We do it, because it's how we cope with our thoughts, feelings, and emotions. x

Crazy Nurse said...

[[[hugs]]] ruminating over 'why?' can send you round in circles. Think about the why not? instead (having to hide your arms, permenantly scarring, those looks off strangers)

xXx

Jo said...

Hey Polar Bear,

I don't have answers, but I wish I could write "loved" on your arms. Check out this site...My brother-in-law told me about how his friend started this movement to help someone who cuts. I don't think it will give answers but know that people out there want to help and go through exactly the same thing. You are so worthy of love and I hope the pain stops one day or is swallowed up by love: http://www.twloha.com/vision/

Jo said...

oh yeah, in case you weren't sure...Jo is Yuki!:)

Handsome B. Wonderful said...

I'm sorry I've been away from your blog for awhile. I don't see something horrid in your scars -- I see arms that surely give great hugs!! It must feel terrible to have the urge to hurt yourself. While I am suicidal I am thankfully not a cutter.

I do understand why you'd do it though. Sometimes the only thing we can feel is PAIN but it tells us we are still alive and human. Not saying it's GOOD but that's what I see anyway.

Actually, I don't cut but I do collect tattoos in part because I love the pain sensations while getting the ink done. I hope you can resist the urge to hurt yourself but I know it's not that easy. Just know you are loved and I've been thinking about you.

I hope this new year brings us all better mental health.

word said...

一起加油吧 ..................................................

susan said...

Oh Polar Bear!

I've been away from your blog for awhile- but I understand.
Sending you big big hugs.....

Immi said...

*offers hugs*