Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Losing battle

I'm so tired. I feel as though all the fight has let go of me. Or maybe it is I who let go.

My mind keeps screaming at me. And I talk too much. It's unlike me. But I always say too much. My secrets are not secrets anymore. And when you lose a secret, you lose the power.

8 comments:

Wandering Coyote said...

Chin up, Polar Bear! Hugs from Canada.

Matthew Isaacson said...

I'm sorry to hear you're having such a hard time. Just stick in there. Get a healthy amount of sleep, eat something nutritious, and do something nice for yourself. Not that that fixes all the problems, but I find things always seem better when I start there.

Stephany said...

You're in control!

Laura said...

Another hug from Canada.

Borderline Lil said...

Hang in there PB, hugs from across the Tasman xx

Harriet said...

Oh Polar Bear, I'm so sorry. Maybe when you lose your secrets you open up new possibilities.

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Kelly said...

Hey. You.
I love polar bears so I clicked.
I'm bipolar and borderline.
I want to share with you what my therapist said to me when I asked him "why do I say so much to every relationship about myself? everyone I meet knows too much about me!"
"Maybe it's your way of attaching yourself to them..." I am learning to limit my self-disclosure. I don't know if that it what your blog pertains to but it has been a painful part of my evolution and recovery as a borderline, especially with the bipolar. Hope we can talk more. I need people who understand and cope.
And you are coping.
The mere fact that you struggle is a sign that you cope.
Peace to you, polar bear.
Kelly