There have been developments, obviously, because so much time have passed since I last updated here.
I was back in hospital again, after missing an appointment with V and failing to show up at work. I had people upset and angry with me, and I still don't have a clear reason of why.
The turmoil inside caused me so much endless pain. My mind was more conflicted than it has ever been before. What do you do when your body naturally does everything it has to do to preserve itself, but the mind is screaming for release, screaming for total oblivion, total darkness. What do you do when the heart hurts yet it keeps on beating?