I always knew it would come to this. I knew it was going to hurt. If I ever thought, or for one moment, hoped, that I could cope, then I was a bigger fool than I ever thought.
There have been some very dark moments. When I can't even imagine the possibility of light,... when my mind is filled with horror and devastation,... when my chest heaves with agony,... when breathing feels like a betrayal.
Yes, there have been some very dark moments. When I wonder where God is, or contemplate why even He has abandoned me.