Thursday, July 22, 2010

Drown

The grief isn't buried as deep as I thought/wanted it to be. All she did was scratch the surface and the dam broke, and it was all I could do to stay afloat in the rushing tide of water.

It was compounded by the voice in my head telling me that drowning would be so much easier. You simply let go... let go of everything and stop fighting because the more you fight, the more agonising it is going to be.

Just let go.

Why can't I?

2 comments:

Aqua said...

Hi PB,
I haven't commented lately, sorry, but I do read your blog and I feel so similiar to what you describe sometimes. I really struggle with letting go, just being...I don't know how to let go, but I wanted you to know I feel it too and I know how devastatingly hard it is.
hugs,
...aqua

Borderline Lil said...

All we have is the fighting back, Polar, and even though it's agonising (as you say) we keep on doing it. You're a fighter, for better or worse my friend x